only god knows why

i woke up early in the morning last week. i was just having this thought, why wouldn't somebody around would know what you're thinking?

kid-rock's best single debut, only god knows why was the first thing i thought in my mind. full of blessless-emotions sticking. imagine it this way, you're always hoping that people around you know you, getting some attention on what you're doing and what's really happening to you. god knows why that we all don't give a fuck. it's a very simple human nature that we're born selfish and stop caring what the hell are the next person thinking about in their life.

i read a book written by stephanie goddard davidson saying, we all should stop worrying about other person instead and start worrying about yourself. it's motivating, but it hurts in the latter. that's what we all do. waking up, looking for blessing in the new day, looking up to your water drops from the shower while you're cleaning up and telling i'll be alright. pampering oneself, and while you're moving on every hours, you're thinking what am i doing here?

why am i not moving forward?

what's so bothering me?

could it be tension? could it be the money? could it be the life satisfaction? could it be family tension? and you do crank down, they're all asking, and you have to understand the point of telling.

life couldn't be so much worth it if you're not thinking like god did.