another empty night

It's New Year eve, another empty night for me?

Where are you?

We're barbecuing 2009 tonight. After that, everyone's off for a date.
What the fuck else, another date again with my buddies, Malcolm and Raymond Siaw. fuck and where the fuck is Teo Chun Kiat?

It's always a tradition to say Happy New Year to someone else during every new year. Couldn't it something better than that?

misery

Would you talk out to put out your misery?

Would you stay mute to let the others understand how respectful you could be?

Would you rather spend some time doing it rather than bitching it out?

Leaning to a misery to gain independent? How pathetic could that be?
Or just stick to the silence to gain a soldier's salute? How long could you last suffocating before you gone insane?

What it meant to be does not mean to be what you wanted to be. Stepping out of reality are meant to give up. Keeping the facts that makes you being more understand about yourself. Knowing what to do is right to determine what's good and what's bad for you. You couldn't want more than this than anyone else.

Staying put to misery stands 0.9 probability to misled you and 0.1 to makes you grow up. A misleading makes you drop and lose it all. If you're insane, you ought to be the master of life geography.

Relying another homosapien opinion wasn't just the tactic or solution. What could you possibly get from a misery?

I'm still thinking what to blog now.

Another 4 days to say hello to Sabah again.

hoping something better

Would there be something better than this?

Why am I not seeing it?

Does your hope ever was the main distraction?

christmas eve

I hardly update my blog nowadays. Been hanging around with friends lately. Sorry to all my reader. It's Christmas Eve today.

Merry Christmas to everyone.

I don't know what else should I do today. It's another plain night for me again. Everyone has a date with their partner tonight.

I'll be like a gay with Malcolm and Raymond later. And why the fuck I don't see Chun Kiat?

a night-wished comments

My night stalker post has reached 26 comments. What the fuck is wrong with these perverts?

Here's the link. Check it out.

http://tonydowster.blogspot.com/2009/11/night-stalker.html

Thanks.

whore as sex mercenary?

I been having this sort of idea of what I thought about a whore as a part of an occupation or ambition for some people and I been thinking few reasons to support that.

A whore is rather a critics at which a person described as someone who get paid for sex or maybe is used as a term which describe a person, usually a female as a cheap sex bitchy slave for someone else.

Another word term for someone who get paid for sex is prostitute. Any of you hired these peoples to fulfill your needs or not? Gigolo was used for male. Don't you get amuse with the prostitutes and gigolos. You do have to eat. You do have to drink. What would be the last choice if you're really fucking poor and you don't have any potentials or talented in something? You have the looks. You're hot and sexy. Try interviewing a prostitute and check out what's their response. They would rather tell you that it's all about money.

I couldn't understand more why would some people choose this way when there's a lot of opportunities around them. It's all about giving up their life and pursuing an unwanted dream or seeking an unseen ambition without any commitment. This would be my way of defining the facts. Looking at the facts with pros and cons. Whore, prostitute or gigolo is what we called as a sex mercenary if you would look it as a positive way. Whore, prostitute or gigolo is what we called as unnecessary and being disrespect by every common social culture that we know in this world. Not only that as it tends to make a person in becoming more and more immature and losing confident with their social relationship life.

What could be more faithful towards this sort of occupation? I do believe humans has their needs of life. First things first. You do learn and understand it before ever since you were born in this motherly heaven earth. Foods and drinks were first. A place to stay would be second. Cloths will be third. Cloth comes third cause you don't actually need cloths to survive your body. If you would say that cloths were so important that you couldn't live without it, you're offending a nudist. Google nudist. Don't ever try offend another human's right. Whether you know or not knowing it, relationship and sex stands fourth in the list. It's not being explain cause I think it might be so sensitive towards some of the people am I right about it? But I do believe it could another consolation needs for our human.

Relate the 4th needs to a whore. Not everyone were as lucky to had a relationship and sex in their life. You're lucky doesn't mean a he or a she would be as lucky as you as well. Appreciate your love and what you had with you. First principle of relationship. Okay, speaking of the facts that some people wouldn't get a satisfaction in need of sex. People tend to turn down to a whore or prostitute seeking to fulfill their needs. It's so pathetic, yes it is. Who would be the people who are willing to fulfill these people. A whore or gigolo. Would you agree with that? These are the people who are work hard in the underworld preventing the sex-lack people to burst out raping the street girls or street thugs. During this period, money comes in handy. You don't have the money, you have to work hard for it.

You would probably think I'm bending my thoughts to support them. I could probably understand what you think about it. If they really couldn't satisfy themselves with their needs, why would they can't seek for other solution and work hard for it? Yes. I totally agree with that as well. Being hardworking never turns your life down. Being lazy and giving up in something turns you down easily. Trust me. fuck you if you're giving up on something. Trust nobody but yourself. Another principle of life. You want to get paid, you gotta go for it. You want to get lust, you gotta work for it. Your poor mummy doesn't going to feed you with milk everyday with her boobies anymore. Your poor daddy doesn't going to squirt for you anymore.

Whore, gigolos, never been accepted in most countries. It's illegal for some and legal for few. What could it be more helpful with the economy? They had their purpose of life. You could have treat them like a sex mercenary. You could have treat them like a pathetic sick wrecked occupation. An earth never be balance without the good and evil. This proved why heaven and hell exist. We were in the middle to choose our own path. It's the same for you right now. There's good and evil. What you are in right now were to hesitate or think like a mad scientist to choose what could be more helpful towards yourself. A kid or teenager would stands as earth. Heaven and hell stands for the good and evil.

You gotta think probably they were a part of a profession. They got to eat as well too right? Japanese sex industry wouldn't be so well developed in recent years if a prostitute or whore wouldn't be accepted well by their country. It's because that they were accepted by the community and it turns well where each of them do help each other growing their economy like non-fiction story. Certain rules measured the threshold point. It's the same term if you want to be accepted another person, you gotta know your steps and lines. Pay attention in what you do.

Whether to treat them nicely or not, it depends on what you think. But please do let me know about your opinion. I love getting wiser with your thoughts.

Would you salute the sex mercenary?

Would you hate these whores?

Would you rather kill them for having sex with your partner?

Why sex would have to be the first thing that offended you?

Would you rather these people not exist in this world?

Why the world couldn't be more clean like we thought and wanted to be?

Why wouldn't we recognized them as a legal affiliate to improve the economy crisis?

Why would they turn out to be a lust or so influential towards the needs of a human basis?


Seek forward for an answer for these questions. I would accept any of your comment base on what I wrote. I hope it's not too long for to read what I blog again =)

Flame me if you could.


Thanks for reading.

robbery as a profession

Anyone of you watch Ocean 11,12 and 13?

a fucking hell yeah of a movie. I would recommend you to watch it if ya'all are interested with robbing some rich dicks.

Do you ever think of a robbery as one of a profession? Robber should be respect and salute with their highly skills and technique of stealing. Yes, stealing is good for robber but for the victim, they would think that it would be unfair for them if their goods or stuff were stolen by someone else. How could you say it was unfair if it was you left yourself stand there off-guard. Why wouldn't you secure the goods area since you know they are at least few percent of probability that someone will come and rob you away.

Rob you and rob you again. That's the inspiration from the oceans. A pure professional robbery. You should watch it. I don't know what else to say here but do try to enjoy the movies.

Not to forget, Al Pacino was in Ocean 13 which I almost can't recognize him in that. He was too old already.

futsal

Futsal or football, anyone?

Love the game. It's nice to be around with my ex-teammates again.

I miss the touch of balls. I don't think a gay could understand it. I think a straight female would misunderstand that. A football player understands it all.

Thanks to the existence of football.

lonesome

What about being lonesome?

I'm talking about not having a any relationship at all with anyone that is opposite sex of you, it doesn't matter whether they have the nice tits or even a 2 gigantic testicles balls beneath them.

First of all, you gotta understand that when you're lonely or lonesome, it's really so fucking lonely. duh.

You wouldn't have anything else to care in this world.

Who the hell is going to care about you when you lost your wallet or purse by a pickpocket. Who the hell is going to care about you when you're broke your hands or legs.

Who the hell care about you when you're being hospitalized? Okay, for more serious cases, we would assumed that your own family would be the first and the last person on earth care about you.

For a more serious case is that you gone crazy waiting and hoping you're in a relationship. You unlocked your cellphone keypad, pressing in your phone book and browse through all those names you been saving for 120 years ago. Looking at every names makes you think of every personality and every last memory that you had gone through with them. You text them or make a call. Never a response from them or maybe just 1 or 2 text message reply from these people. Lonely person end up not being alert or aware that people will look for them even if their old buddies were just looking for them for a cup of coffee or tea.

Look at your surrounding. People who are in a relationships seems to be more alert in their telecommunications sets such as their cellphone or even their msn, etc. People who are loner seems not to be alert with their cellphone set.

One important point that you must remember is that a lonely person doesn't mean you're single. A single person doesn't mean you're a lonely person. A single person could be a fucking playboy. A lonely person could be one really pathetic person.

Every human has their weakness. Most common of all is not being able to fulfill themselves the satisfaction of life. I do believe you do complain or bitching a lot in your life whether I know, I don't know, we know, we don't know or only you know it yourself. Examples here would be, human tend to complain with unnecessary stuff. A person who are in a relationships tend to complain their partner being too busybody or maybe being too annoying. When their partner starts to stray away, human tend to emo-faking the facts that their partner straying away. Who the hell wants that. If you want it, you gotta start to accept the facts that coming your away.

When you're lonely, do you complains or bitching around saying you don't have a person to be with? DO YOU!? If you say no, that would be bullshit. Even if you don't speak it out by your mouth, you might even speak it out from your mind. You see, our mindset has to be strong in what you do. Don't be a pessimist. Be an optimist. You gotta understand what you wanted to do later in your life. You only had 2 chance of to speak the words of your heart. Your brain would be the first organ on earth knows what you feel and speak it out for you in your heart without your lips babbling it out yet. That's the first chance you had. If you're rational enough with your mindset, the first chance is always forgiven by everyone even me and you who are reading this. If you're not rational enough, if your mouth starts to speak out the words of your mind. You gotta be careful of what you just said.

Understand the meaning of the above passage. The point is, do what you said. Don't believe it would totally change what's coming forward for you. Accept the fact of what's coming for you. A person might slap you. Some might even praise you like a Buddha.

Back to the topic. According to my fellow reader's comment on my previous post, yes, I totally grateful for ya all comment on that. I accept all the comment. This is my opinion whether you like it or not. Okay, being single is totally great. Being lonely is totally sad. Being in relationship is about commitment and makes you more mature. You could be a total retard in a relationship until the end of a relationship and it makes you more mature or more understanding of what or who you are. What you experience makes you becoming more aware of what's happening in your life. You gotta understand that you shouldn't forget that you still had your friends and family. Okay. Friends and family are considered as in relationship with you indirectly. We don't speak of in a relationship with your current friends or family cause it might sounds like an incest or so gay or whatever the word it is.

HARDWORKING. Learn that word. Understand it well. Browse every of your home dictionary on that word. Read it few times. You gotta stop being a loner. You gotta learn to be a single not a loner. A loner doesn't have a life to be. A single has a great life to enjoy with.

Okay, if you're thinking that why an assassin is always related as a loner. That's different. You gotta understand that doing a crime harms your life. Why would they rather be a loner to work hard earning money to get some food on the table? Even the chinese do say 'xian ku hou tian'. If you want to get big bucks, you got to go through the hard way. What's pity of it is that their job has to be a loner. Even assassins have a heart to protect their friends, partner and family. They doesn't want anything bad to happen to them. Hope you get what I mean. Even Bill Gates works hard like a cow feeding us with milk. That's a different story.

I'm totally lonesome for now, i guess. and I'm sorry if I offended you readers for reading such a a long text. I'm trying my best to cut down the numbers of words. And sorry if I misunderstand you for the previous post which says a simple single lonely person for this post which I trying to elaborate it in a way that the meaning of the word lonely is different from being single.

Thanks for reading. Please comment.


ADIOS!

dentist

Anyone love dentist?

Oya Polyclinic

I went to consult a dentist for one of my tooth. It seems to be having some troubles. I don't know why, I just totally feels like there's a hole inside one of my front tooth.

Went to the polyclinic and register myself. Paid RM1 ONLY. I was happy that I was on the next person on the list. I'm holding the number 1099 and the screen was showing 1098. But fuck yeah, I waited for 45 minutes until my turn. I thought that the LCD might be spoiled already. Shit @.@ I wondered what happened to the person's teeth before me lol

Alright, I sit down.

dentist: Apa masalah kamu?
me: Macam ada lubang kat gigi saya?
dentist: Di mana?
me: Kat sini? Belakang ni. Ada?
dentist: Tak nampak la, gigi kamu terlalu kotor, macam terlalu lama tidak cuci.

*wtf* I was thinking of the food I ate I earlier omg. lol

me: jadi?
dentist: Macam ni, saya buat kamu satu appointment utk kamu datang cuci dulu okay? Lepas cuci baru boleh nampak mana lubang kamu tu. Sekarang saya tengok gigi kamu ni nampak sihat saja la.
me: bah, okay la.

They put me on 15 january 2010 for my appointment, I was kinda shocked why that long queue. I'm off to Sabah again by that time. Remake an appointment on 12 Feb 2010. Alright, fine. Since it's cheap, and I don't have that much money. I guess I gotta wait :(

For those Sabahan reader who are reading this, don't misunderstand about the why the polyclinic only charge RM1. In Sarawak, polyclinics are all under goverment management. So, that's why it is so cheap.

lonely

whats good and whats bad being a simple single lonely person?

comment please and i'll response with a new post.

priestess of the moon in singapore zoo

To all the Dota Player, Priestess of the Moon caught at the Singapore Zoo. lol

Photo credit to my friend, Ngian Yee How.

LP at Milton Keynes 2008

Anyone still remember LP!?

Check out their concert in Milton Keynes 2008 in youtube. fucking brutal rock.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ns_lLD2PKUY

this one is the song 'From the Inside"

Happy watching

hello sibu

hello to sibu.

hello to my mum and dad.

hello to my grandma and grandpa.

hello to both of my sister.

hello to my friends.

hello to the new dogs in the house.

hello my room.

hello all.

I'm back again. Have you been missing me? Please say you do.

woooh. There's good thing and bad thing when I back here.

Good thing
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Let's go from the top of the list
1. I can online again. aduh* I really looking forward to this alot.
2. I can drive again.
3. I can save my money again.
4. I can eat breakfast again.
5. I can have hot shower again.
6. I can hang out around v6 again.
7. I can hang out with my buddies again.
8. I can have more privacy in my room again.
9. I can sleep with air con again
10. I don't have to do that much laundry again :)

Bad thing
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Let's go from the top of the list
1. I miss KK night life.
2. I can't go out till too late.
3. My parents gonna give me very early morning wake again =.=
4. I can't go out for too long.
5. I need to answer my mum's question each time I'm back.
6. I need to help fill the car's petrol.
7. I need to help my sister to wash her car.
8. No more club.
9. I can't go to the school's lab doing my research.
10. I can't seek help from the genius in one of the KK electronic store.

I can't think of anymore else. Any question or suggestion, please comment (=

Thank you

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http://tonydowster.blogspot.com/2009/11/night-stalker.html

wow. some japanese writing jap comment to me in my night stalker post.

@.@

i dare you click in their profile. super sexy people

bribery

Does anyone support bribery?

I was driving bike heading to buy my project materials earlier afternoon at Kelombong area just now. I had no license.

I was turning left into a junction then I was suprised there were around 6 to 7 police officers. I try to be cool and drive the bike to the right side of a lorry trying get myself cover. and hell, the police eventually run out to the road and keep pointing me to stop down.

So I purposely drive far abit from their location to have a better negotiation with the police.

police: kenapa henti jauh-jauh sini?
me: tak adalah, saya hanya mau slow slow masuk pergi tepi jalan bah.
police: tengok lesen kamu.

after few minutes,
police: kamu orang sarawak ka?
me: ya kenapa?

and the personal conversation goes on and on.
police: ahhh, kamu tak ada lesen B2 ah. kamu tahu saya boleh saman kamu rm300 - rm400 ka?
me: oh, ya kah.
police: jadi macam mana?
me: janganlah, bang. mahal tu. tolong la sikit.

police: kamu ni student?
me: ya, study kat ums. tak ada banyak duit mahu bayar saman ni.
police: apa kamu buat kat sini pandu dgn tak ada lesen?
me: hanya limpas sini mau pergi barang saja bah. Tolong la, bang? ada lain cara?

police: boleh, kamu mau saya tolong? okay bah, macam ini, saya sekarang tidak mau saman kamu tak ada lesen tapi saya saman cermin motosikal kamu yg pendek tu.
me: bah, motosikal ini sewa punya. bukan saya punya.
police: eh, saya tidak kisah tu. RM50 saja tu.
me: eh, mahal la bang. Macam mana kalau kurang sikit. Ada cara lain bah.
police: tak adalah, ini cara paling senang kalau kau mau saya tolong kau. okay ah? jangan takut. Sikit saja ni.

the officer write my name word by word. T....O....N.....Y.....

police: okay ah? saya tulis sudah ya?

fuck u. he wrote it so slowly as if trying to challenge me to speak it out.

me: ok ok, macam ini, macam mana kalau saya belanja u. Bang tolong saya, saya pun tolong. bang, okay?
police: macam mana kamu boleh tolong saya? saya sudah start tulis sikit nama kamu dah ni.
me: kita macam ni lah, kita kurangkan harga tu.
police: macam mana boleh tu.
me: mungkin saya boleh belanja kamu makan around RM20?
police: bah, okay, saya tak boleh terima tu. Kamu faham lah. saya memang tidak boleh terima tu.
me: kenapa? saya betul-betul boleh bagi ni kalau kau mau. bagus dari saya bayar boss kau saman tu.

police: bukan saya tak mau, cuma kamu tengok belakang dan tepi kau. banyak orang ni. faham-faham la
me: saya faham la, tapi saya confirm ada cara lain bagi kau bah tu.

the officer hesitate.

police: bah, tak apalah, macam ni lah, kamu simpan ja duit kamu tu. belanja kamu sendiri makan ya. kamu jalanlah saja. jangan lagi bagi saya nampak kamu di sini ya
me: bah, okay lah, bang, thank you.

lol. omg, these people.

by the way, I was lucky to get away. hahaha